Are You Listening? -Part 2

"Good morning dear, I'm glad you had a good night of rest."
"Good morning Father! How did you know I slept well?"
"Little one I know everything! I know when you sleep, when you wake, when you stand, and when you sit. I know when you are happy and when you are disappointed. I know all the secrets you don't want anyone to know and I know the lies you've told. I know all about who you are, what you are, and who you want to be."
"Right... I guess I forget that you are always there. You are always there for me yet I only want you when it is convenient for me. I never stop to think about how much you really do know. I mean I tell my best friends everything I feel comfortable telling them, which is a lot, but there is still so much about me they do not know. There's much that I am too ashamed to tell them. So many sins I've committed that I wouldn't dare share with them, because they might think of me in a different way. People don't tend to be so forgiving when they know your secrets. Why are people so harsh?"
"My dear, you must not worry about those around you. I am, I was, and I will always be who you know me to be and who you will find me to be. People change on a daily basis. They are the one thing in your life you don't want to change, yet they are the ones who change the most. The ones you once held dear are now no where near. It is a long and hard lesson to learn and many learn the wrong lesson and end up wrecking many relationships. I tell you in confidence my dear, be careful who you listen to and be careful who you let your secrets flow to. The disciples thought they could trust Judas. Eve listened to a snake. Neither of those situations turned out well. You sin, but they sin too. They are not perfect and for them to not love you like I do is a sin in its self. Remember my grace is sufficient for you. My power is made perfect in your weakness. You must forgive one another just as I have forgiven you, by doing this all will know you are my child. Do not worry about those you lose along the way. I have a different plan for each of them and you, and it does not involve you together. Rest in my peace today, knowing that I will pick you up when you stumble."
"It's just so hard to leave the ones I love, or use to. Is there any other way?"
"Love, I sent my son to die for you. The night his blood fell from his wounds I felt a great deal of pain in my heart and so did my son. He had to leave many behind that he loved, but with out this sacrifice I would have had to leave you forever. Moses was parted from his family who loved him dearly, but look what I did through him! I have a wonderful plan for you and right now you can only see the pages you have written. My book for your life is already complete, you are still writing yours."
"Father did you see that?! Did you hear what they said to that poor girl? Did you see what they did to me? Why do they have to be so mean? Why does it hurt so much and why does it feel like I can't go on anymore? I don't want this! This isn't the life I want! Why Lord why?! Why do you let so many despicable things happen, not only to me, but to everyone?! This world is nothing but hurt, sadness, and anger. I just don't understand you."
"Oh dear.. My sweet, sweet child.. I have seen everything. I saw what they did and I see all the pain in the world. Believe me when I say that I truly do love you and that a bad day or even week does not mean you have a bad life. There are those who are in far worse situations than you and yes I see them too. I know the struggle they have suffered and will suffer and they will get their reward one day. One day soon my son will come for you and you will kneel before my throne. I will show you all you have done, even the things you had wished I'd forgotten. On that day in paradise, all your questions will be answered, but until then, love like I love you. Be a friend to those who need a friend, just like how my son walked and talked with the ones the world loved to hate. If someone treats you or anyone else poorly, remember 7X70, turn the other cheek and learn from their actions. Use their negative attitudes and poor spirits to fill the world with happiness and love. In the end love will always win. Be who I have created you to be. Not who others want you to be. They devil prowls around like a hungry lion ready to devour anything in his sight. Do not fall into his temptation or the worldly lifestyle you see everyday."
"Ouch! What is this? Lord, what is this feeling I'm feeling? Why does it hurt so bad? What is happening to me?"
"Hurt, my dear. You are hurt. What you are feeling is a broken heart. You have seen what the world does to those who love me and even those who reject me. You have experienced what it is like to try and carry the weight of this world all on your own and fail. My sweet child, rest in my arms. Allow me to carry you as I slowly put you back together."
"I got the worst news today Father. I can't even begin to wrap my mind around it."
"I know you did. Talk to me. Tell me what you are feeling. Tell me why you are struggling. Just talk to me."
"You want to know how I'm feeling?! Don't you already know?! I am furious! Of all times why did this have to happen to me now?! You know how important this is to me and now there's a chance I will never be able to do this again and why?! Why did you have to shatter my heart like this? Do you not see how much this is hurting me or how much I would give to have it all back again? Do you know what it was like for me to sit there and listen to all these things I had to do and even if I did do them it was not a 100% guarantee of recovery. Do you have any idea how I felt as my heart was ripped out knowing I could not do the one thing I loved to do and the one gift I could give back to you?! You want me talk to you? Well there. I said it. That's exactly how I'm feeling."
"Breathe my child, breathe. You are so focused on the future that you are not looking at the present. What will happen will and what is not meant to be won't. You know better than most that this is not the end. I can not tel you now why you are in the position that you are in, but someday you will look back and know. Wipe the tears from your weary eyes and trust in my plan. Rest awhile in my grace knowing that I will pull you free from this storm. As you learn to abide in me I will gather the pieces of your shattered heart and make it new again. My precious, you will have trouble in this world, but I have overcome the world! I know how it feels to have a broken heart more than you know. The night my son asked why I had forsaken him, every child that turns from me,, every sin that is committed, and every angry cry is a spear to my heart. I know the pain you are feeling. I have walked in your shoes, I have walked your path and I know where it leads. Trust me. I can not give you the full joy of life or the next step if you do not rely on me 100%."
"......I.... I... I.. am.. just so tired.. Tired of fighting for this... This was my life.. There was not a plan B. I was not suppose to deal with this. not now. Not after how far I had come and how hard I had worked. I gave everything. This was not how this was suppose to go, this is not the way I saw this, this isn't what I had planned."
"No, this is not what you had planned, but this is what I have planned. My dear you can not count your steps like that. Stop where you are and surrender to my love and peace. Your plans are not my plans. Trust me when I say my plans are the best."
"Where am I? How did I fall so far from who I was? This isn't me! I don't do this, I don't act like this! What is wrong with me?!"
"My dear, the less time you spend with me and the more time you spend with the world, the more you act like the world, and the more of a gap that is created between you and I. This is the last thing I want, but you make your own choices. I have given you the privilege of free will and it's up to you how you use it. I know this is not the way you would normally behave, but for now my love, you need to rest. We will discuss this when you are not sleep deprived. I know the days are rough and the nights are longs, but my grace is sufficient for you. Rest now little one. I will keep you safe. Allow me to comfort you as you count the stars in the sky. Peace I give to you tonight as your eyes flutter shut. Until next time sweet child."
"Until next time Father."